1. |
A Dark Night of the Soul
07:03
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I'M STARTING OVER
I AM NOT A RELIABLE NARRATOR
SO DO NOT TRUST A WORD I SAY
(breath)
I breathe! I see! I feel
Alone even with my family by my side!
Where am I?!
Last night!
A fight!
Syrup clothes!
I tried to
FUCKING KILL MYSELF
What do I do now?!
What do I do...
STARTING OVER
[Chorus]
Starting over
It starts with me
Learning to live
And let it be
Striving to fail
A living hell
Keeping these things
Inside of me
I hand over control
On this dark night of the soul!
THE SOUL
[the solo]
You fuck! Go play rockstar!
Forget all about the one you brought to life!
PRIORITIES
"I DON'T CARE" I scream!
I feel alone every day of my fucking life!
Drawn to lies!
[Chorus]
I hand over control
On this dark night of the F*CKIN!! soul!
THE SOUL
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2. |
Gray Matters
05:13
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Strange things are on my mind
You hear this all the time
"I'm such a tragic artist
So I need to scream!"
But there is truth my dears
I live in constant fear
My daily struggle is
Much worse than being dead
I swear it's not a lie
I've seen the afterlife
Why hold on?
I'll move on
I am so alone
In my head
Laughing and screaming and crying inside
Wishing and wanting and waiting to die
Trying and failing and weeping and wailing, and
Why can't I see through this haze?
Strange things before my eyes
Old tits and stupid fights
Spending day by day inside a sterile room with nothing
But my fucked up consciousness to carry me through
I'm hanging by a thread
My sustenence is meds
I expect nothing
Why could I not end up dead?
Gray matter!
What's the matter fucker?
Hate runs through my synapses
Gray matter!
What's it matter when your
Own mind is at war?
WAR!
Laughing and screaming and crying inside
I can recall but I can't count all the times
I have died without dying, lost will for trying
It gets easier and easier to give up every single day
Everything's looking gray!
Laughing and screaming and crying inside
Wishing and wanting and waiting to die
Trying and failing and weeping and wailing, and
Why can't I see through this fucking haze?
I stand free
I refuse to no longer be me
I'm living, I'm learning
Escaping these gray matters
You live and you learn and you die
That's all that there is in this life
A new day, horizon
Is growing ever clearer
Gray matter, what's the matter?
My whole mind is at war
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3. |
The Pendant
09:27
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I, I realize
Way up high
Time's on my side
Way up
HIGH
DRIFTING INTO THE NETHER
HIGH
I DRIFT INTO IT FOREVER
Drifting and clawing
I'll never find a way out
Breaking and longing
For a new life to live
I've got to find a way to break the cycle
I don't wanna be dependent on you
Though as I sing it couldn't feel further from true
But I don't wanna feel so bad no more
And I don't wanna be the pendant you swing
No, I don't wanna be your anything
'Cause I don't wanna feel so bad no more
I don't wanna be dependent no more
I, I realize
By your side
Way up high
Side by
SIDE
DRIFTING INTO THE NETHER
HIGH
WE DRIFT INTO IT TOGETHER
Drifting and clawing
I'll never find a way out
Breaking and longing
For a new life to live
I've got to find a way to break the cycle
I'm never going back - escape
One thing's for sure
I don't wanna be dependent! NO
I'm chosen by the aether
This form displeases me but
I've fought relentlessly
To see it to my eternal grave
Now, to rearrange my faith
And to complicate my fate
The world's closing in on me
I am chosen, I am free
I am chosen, I am free
And I don't wanna be dependent on you
Though as I sing it couldn't feel further from true
But I don't wanna feel so bad no more
And I don't wanna be the pendant you swing
No, I don't wanna be your anything
'Cause I don't wanna feel so bad no more
I've got these feelings I can't ignore
Deep down I know one thing for sure
I don't wanna be dependent no more!
And every time I say I'll live to see through better eyes (BETTER EYES)
It seems that every step I take will have me sooner die (SOON I'LL DIE)
Or at the least, it will force my path to go awry (GO AWRY)
But now I'm thinking that when plans go wrong, maybe "that's life"
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4. |
Back to the Pit
04:25
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No need to worry
You are here with me now
You'll find a way, it'll fade away
Wipe your tears, get back to the pit
I've been waiting so long for this
Wipe your tears, get back to the pit
I've been waiting so long
For all these years
You've been hiding in yourself
You need to know that you are free
NOW
Wipe your tears, get back to the pit
I've been waiting so long for this
Wipe your tears, get back to the pit
I've been waiting so long
You never seem to want to save
The things that matter most to me
And you expect me not to go
GO
Bow down!
I'm your king!
With me, there's no need to be sad!
You never seem to want to save
The things that matter most to me
And you expect me not to go
Now I intend to prove you wrong
I'll kill my thoughts and move along
I'll find myself and move along
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5. |
The Train Song
01:49
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What's in the feelings that we can't describe?
A maniacal train ride!
OH!
What's this shit?!
A burning train cockpit!
Barreling forward towards certain sudden death
Choo choo motherfuckers!
Choo fucking choo!
What is happening to me?
A sudden craving for death, I see!
This is not me!
This is not ME!
ATTENTION: DEATH COMING
[train track sfx layered in background]
CHUGGA CHUGGA CHUGGA CHUGGA CHUGGA
CHUGGA CHUGGA CHUGGA CHUGGA CHOO (x4)
[long train whistle over this last section]
What the fuck is this?
An obscenity!
Many lives are dead
Now because of me!
I have lost my place
A criminal face
Now my life is done
Not the way I planned
When insanity!
Gets too much to be!
Come outside with me!
Take this train with me!
When insanity!
Gets too much to be!
Come outside with me!
Take this train!
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6. |
Merely Me
04:28
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Feels like it's the apocalypse
Seems to be the norm
Seems to be my doom
I suffer, I beg
Someone please let me out
I suffer, I plead
Someone please let me out or
Watch as I lose my mind!
Seems to be my end
For every problem I don't create
Another one comes back from my past to haunt me
Reminding me that I've fucked up again
And again and again and again
And then the nails dug in
So deep that they left scars in my skin
Reminding me that
I am mere
Merely me, you see
Merely me
For every problem I've tried to fake
That's a problem that I create
The roots take hold and then they grow
And then my self retreats below
And then the blade digs in
So deep that I'll escape from my skin
Reminding me that I'm
Merely me
I suffer, I beg
Someone please let me out
I suffer, I plead
Someone please let me out or
Watch as I lose my mind!
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7. |
Preying the Weak
02:56
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And there is something lurking
Beneath my field of vision
It has such bad breath
It laughs too much
And in its grip I feel I start to become it
Polluting my spirit, corrupting my mind
Since then I've learned I have the right to refuse it
Never before had I so wanted to die
I feel so alive when I'm not by your side
DIE
Preying the weak, you prey on the weak
It's praying week, you're preying the weak
Preying the weak, you prey on the weak
Pray for the weak, it's preying week
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8. |
Oxytocin
05:22
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Sometimes I can't tell
If I feel too much or not at all
Conscience or consciousness
Heart or the mind
Within our skins
Begin our sins
Connection is tricky
Socialization's a mystery
Love is a silent killer
Life looks so bleak
Within our skins
Begin our sins
Love is not what it seems to be
In fact if you look closely
You'll see there's cracks in the fibers
That's right folks, it's a fraud
Hold your applause
You're welcome, you're free!
[Chorus]
Love's not what it seems to be!
It's in the things we use to pee!
Love's not real, it's plain to see
These words I sing will set you free
There's a boy!
And he lives in a house in unrest
And he lives with his mother
And he lives with his father
When he grew up
He learned not to trust a soul
"Love's not real, and neither am I"
[Chorus]
Love's not what it seems to be!
It's in the things we use to pee!
Love's not real, open your eyes
It stays this way until we die
Die
LOVE
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9. |
Broken Mirror
07:34
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She's following behind you
With your strings held in her hand
To keep you from the things you've tried to hide
After all the times you ran from her
You can never seem to lose her
And after all the times she's ruined you
You still can't help but choose her
She's tied you to the bed, but
She doesn't want to please you
She's here to mutilate you
In matter and in mind
You can hardly force a scream
And you decide you hardly care
She leaves you feeling satisfied
But useless, dead inside
She's a killer under my membrane
A nightmare from the deep
She's nothing but a part of me
How am I supposed to leave?
Loathing, you present yourself
In all the strangest forms
I never thought I’d so lustfully
Pursue my own demise
Its addicting ways have tied me
To a life consumed by hate
You’re darkness in its saddest form
The kind that’s born inside
Broken mirror, never clearer
She's everything that I despise
When looking inside me
She’s a terrible dichotomy
That only I can see
[Chorus]
She’s a broken mirror – plagued with hate
She’s everything that’s on my mind
When the demons come to life
She’s just getting clearer – I can’t avert my eyes
I’ve broken her but still I find
She’s breaking me from the inside
From the inside
From inside
[solo]
I look in my eyes
They glare back at me
Never once have I
Felt so execrated
All I want is to
Reinvent myself
I can't live when I
Haunt myself
I lie so pale, bleeding apathy and
I lie so pale, I hate you
All that I am
She's all that I am
All that I am
I'M ABOUT TO PUNCH THIS FUCKING MIRROR
*SMASH*
OWW
AAAAGGHH
MY FUCKING HAND HURTS
Fighting myself
This is the path I choose
Finding myself
Is hard when I don’t know myself
It’s a nightmare to be
Your own worst enemy
I feel destined to lose
A game that I never asked to play
[Chorus]
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10. |
Cage Made of Bones
07:25
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Nowhere to run
Nowhere to run
Looks like I’ve found no place to run to
How long must I remain here?
Trapped inside a cage made of bones
Will I ever escape?
ESCAPE THIS CAGE
I am no one
I AM NO ONE
Lost my own sense of self since I’ve been here
I fear I’ll never leave here
Embracing this cage made of bones
I will never escape
I think I’m done
I think I’m done
I can’t take all of this madness anymore
Victim of such mundane torture
LET ME OUT OF THIS CAGE MADE OF BONES
I REALLY HAVE TO ESCAPE
ESCAPE THIS CAGE
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Skrik New York
Based in Long Island, NY, Skrik is the solo project of Brandon Sussman. Skrik's music is a blend of nu metal's dramatic
angst with progressive experimentation and big pop metal hooks.
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